i have a rule on my blog these days: no blogging after 10pm.
it serves 2 purposes.
1. makes me go to bed.
2. keeps me from being emotional online.
i decided that since i'm not emotional at the moment, i'd let it slide this time.
i encountered something today that caught me off guard. i upset someone close to me
by venting a frustration, even though it had nothing to do with them directly OR really
was a HUGE issue. nevertheless, it upset them...and possibly another party...and as they said, may even have an effect on my husband. so that got me thinking about what i said and how it could possibly have hurt them. so, i asked my husband tonight if what i was venting about was upsetting him, too.
he said NO.
good deal.
that's all i need to know.
now i can go on venting.
i have facebook and this blog for me, not for you.
[the photos are for you. that's it.]
they both keep me sane.
they keep me grounded.
most importantly, they keep me healthy.
why would the computer keep me healthy, you ask?
they keep me ulcer free.
i went through a 5 month period before jus and i were married of keeping things bottled up. i was having a terrible time at work, had work related nightmares each night, fought to keep my job at one point...just an absolute mess. a job that i had once loved enough to come in an hour before my shift started and stay an hour after it ended, had become a place i loathed and couldn't wait to get away from. however, i never spoke about my problems. i let them eat away my insides until i got really sick and had to go to the er.
i had an ulcer.
let me tell you, those things hurt.
a lot.
after that happened, i was put on medicine & had to be careful of what i ate so i didn't get sick. watching your diet is worse than bottling things up, so i started opening up, talking about things that bothered me more often. pretty soon it became second nature. i don't wait for anyone to say, "is something bothering you?" anymore. i just start venting.
now, i am grateful to have facebook and my blog to use for the purpose of venting.
on top of that, i'm a very open person. if you ask me a question, i will give a detailed answer(unless it's military related and i may not be at liberty to). i've always felt that the more people know about you, the better they can understand you. and maybe my venting is for me, but what i'm venting about happens to EVERYONE. therefore, people can identify. they can also see that others have problems just like them and they are not alone. to many, seeing that everyone is not perfect is a major comfort.
if you've read my venting, do not be alarmed or concerned about me. typically as soon as i post an issue, the thought of it will soon leave my head & i won't worry about it again.
just to be sure, you all do know that you can't control everything, right?
my mom use to read the same verse to us on a nightly basis. when anyone has ever asked for a favorite verse, it's always the one i give them.
"He will keep in perfect peace, all those who trust in Him, whose thoughts turn off unto the Lord. Trust in the Lord always, for in the Lord Jehovah is your everlasting strength." Isaiah 26:3-4
i love you who worry about us,
but don't waste your time letting it bother you.
i'm taken care of.
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